No Longer The Reflection But The Projection
I look out into the world from where I stand today having been here before, not as who I am today, but of a woman who once was. A woman who was a melting pot of identities, roles, and expectations mostly placed upon herself. But today I now stand with a small request of God I guess, “Provide me the strength to stay in faith through the becoming of whoever is emerging.”
From my heart, my soul, or a pandemic (maybe a combination of all) but whatever this new life is I no longer carry F.E.A.R (false evidence appearing real) but I am scared as FUCK (just a word with unexplainable energy behind it often used by strong willed people).
Now on the other side of creating and writing More Than Existing™ I find myself with new definitions of the words that are defined incorrectly according to my experience in seeking and searching for such experiences such as happiness. There is no preparing for the end of the journey of awakening and no knowing where or how to begin again.
Today I just stand blended in diversity and love. Divinely dignified in faith, but not always so dignified in emotions, but nonetheless I wake, and I try. I have come home to me and stand with this version of an unfamiliar woman that I think I may like. I recognize this from way back when I was on the other side and now I allow her to no longer be the mirror but the reflection that was always just beyond the reach of insecurity.
Today I am at peace and in what I believe to be oneness, and today I stand with the woman who is wearing history on her face, hope in her eyes, and what you can’t see but really exists is joy in her heart.
My mission is now joy, health, and wealth, and this is where I placed myself in the beginning of, “My life!” I have shattered the mirror and I am not a reflection but a projection as I will now walk with the wisdom and the gifts that are now mine to accept. Time to walk into me and out of the mirror that was a reflection of love for everyone else. I did that with such love that maybe this I can accomplish just as successfully.
I have buried the pieces that no longer serve my soul of who I once was in ceremony within and walked into allowing myself to be the “She Is” at the end of More Than Existing™! I am thankful I stayed until the end to be this woman as I think I may actually really be at peace with her. She was the one they called Corrina so long ago and today I am Corrie, but Corrina is an awareness of truth of the blessing of getting what you need and not what you want.
No longer a reflection of a mistake but that of a miracle of what appears when a mother prays for help! God gave her a Mystic and now I see that I had to stop being the mirror for now I am More Than Existing!