This Little Light is Mine

A lifetime of dulling the light that was a privilege bestowed upon me and blessed by the God above, mine to hold but not mine to give away. How dare I believe it was okay to give away this little light that reflected my truest self? I gave away the gift that was a treasure with a little secret of what it would take to care for this light of mine. I gave all to avoid you bringing to light the unhealed insecurities within that human shell of yours, so l stayed uncomfortable in your pain. I forgave so quickly as I always knew that the compassion of your soul had not lost the light of love. Your human shadows of darkness just had you believe that yours was gone and you would need mine to let yours shine. May I be honest in this moment of the aftermath of the casualties of the war I have been in with all versions of myself? It has taken falling to my knees over countless apologies for the “sorry’s” you did not deserve.

I have come to show up and take it all back, but don’t get me wrong, it’s not by getting at you because that’s not in line with my integrity. That day I decided to make a choice to choose me I decided that I would see ME with love. I forgive because me hating you would not help either of us. I decided I would heal and succeed, the best direction to live a life, “The Way” to BE Corrie.

May you also come to know the beautiful light within you, to treasure and grow in its love. To know that we are all worthy of live a life of More Than Existing™.