Behind The Closet Doors
I was once asked, what would be a good way to start connecting to your truth? My response was, “Your closet. Start with your personal clothes closet”. It sounds so simple, but it sets an intention, exposing the truth of worth and value. It opens the door to a lot of “some days” and how you may be punishing yourself with who you once were.
When my life was beginning to change, and I knew that would have to come, I remember calling a friend and saying that it was time to start looking at the clutter and cleaning up my life. It was a well organized and well concealed space, but what was hiding was the “someday” clothing. The clothing that I would tell myself “someday” would fit again.
Truth was it was not an inspiration; it was a reminder and a punishment to the woman looking back at me that didn’t need another judgement placed upon her.
I cleaned up and donated the “someday” clothing, but my egotistical hero to my shadow had me hold onto one pair of jeans. In the months and the year that followed as the weight lifted and I made peace with the choices and decisions I had to make in sorting my own life, those jeans fit once again.
As I was packing all my belongings to move a second time, I spotted that pair of jeans, pulled them up over my ass and the moment of pride turned to a moment of shaking my head as I turned to look in the mirror at a dated bottom half looking back at me.
The reflection of the pants in that image displayed an area where I had begun to lose a part of me. Where my trust and my voice were betrayed.
In that moment, I realized I was not waiting to fit those pants but I was waiting for me to stand up for the woman who used to wear those pants. I held onto that clothing as if it was a memorial to the warrior who conquered many battles and believed she was strong, but it was a legacy and a legend of the stories I would tell myself.
This new moment revealed a continual pattern of old beliefs and if I had overcome it fully, the one pair of jeans would not have stayed.
I was in the energy of the old self. I laughed and I cried and discovered some compassion for the days I shamed myself back into a body to try and wear the life of a woman who was not living with faith, but fear.
With a chuckle I knew in that moment (back in 2018 with this story) that the jeans from 2002 could go, along with the vision, story and legacy.
What would arise as I stood almost naked, was a knowing that I would take the journey to discovering my truth, naked and vulnerable, but clothed in as much love and light as I would provide.
So, when I say, “Start with the clothing in the closet” it is not a joke. The clothing that’s on repeat. The “someday” expensive to-good-to-wear anywhere clothes that never did get worn. The clothing you bought still with the tags, too big or too small because you saw yourself larger than you are, or you were trying to cover up. The too small that became the why to shame and belittling yourself, or maybe it was to inspire you to wear it, but did you ever wear it?
Notice that amount of comfortable verses clothing that express your identity because you forgot you are more than the roles you play.
Oh, I can go on and on, but these are the areas of emotional and spiritual traps, blockages and lies, that I now help you explore with love so that you too can learn to consult with yourself as you open the door and windows to the home that houses your heart and the stories controlling and defining your beliefs.
Trust me, I don’t have it all figured out, but I have learned you have to have grace and track your own patterns to map out the way home to the truth of becoming the healthiest and happiest version of you.
We hide the junk, the truths we were not allowed to speak, and our truest of self way back in the darkest of places, but the attitude still reveals because we are not as good at hiding as we think we are. Opening is not for the world it’s for you, and that you is busting at the seems and screaming for you to make her/him fit into a self that is just right!
Corrie Thorne is an Intuitive/ Medium, Spiritual Teacher and Empowerment / Lightworker Coach. A published author, and creator of The More Than Existing™ book & self-actualization coaching program who has developed her own relaxed style of helping people discover and move beyond the past history in life that is not serving their highest good.
She uses her skills as a past life healer to guide clients into a meditative state to explore the past and cut the cords to the events that have come forward to now. Corrie is also a Reiki Master/ Teacher who has used this technique to help promote self-healing and clear the chakras. Teaching is a passion that Corrie loves to do! She takes the opportunity to teach as a way to share the knowledge that she has accumulated over the many years of studying and developing her skills. Explore more of Corrie’s work and passion @ https://mteacademy.ca, and https://www.corriethorne.com/.
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